最后一篇

从此以后 我不会再写了

这部落格下方的日期已经正式结束了

从认识你到爱上你

我不曾后悔过

如果从新再来多一次 我还是会选择爱你

我第一个爱上的男人

从一个男孩变成了男人

你变了 我变了 

是时间把我们都给变了

不是不爱 而是爱不起了

我多么想要挽留你

我是多么地不舍得你

但我知道已经回不去了

我总是让你失望 痛心

对不起 但你要好好地生活

总有一天你会再遇到另一个她

我相信很快的  

我已不配拥有这一切了

再见 

我不知道你会不会看到这

我不是故意写给你看

只是想让自己清楚地记住今天所发生的一切 一切来得太快 我还来不及面对

但我会努力地笑着 不会哭 

我只会在你面前哭 

别人总是说我无情 强悍 

但暗地里的我 他们什么都不懂

算了 说再多也没有用了 

最后一次跟你说我爱你 

忘记我吧 

Working life

Hi bloggie long time no see. 

Yes, I start working now as a corporate trainee in shangri la hotel. 

Many working staffs there said me and my friend, Chloe are lucky because we got chosen as CT. 

Yes, indeed we are lucky and I appreciate what I have now. 

Although this CT Program is not easy, we have to go to every department, even engineering, but I have to say that, not everyone have this opportunity get this job. But at least, once I finish this program; I will be promoted to another position, but it's still early to say that.So yea, I will learn as much as I could in this one and the half year. 

They said: working in shangri la is not easy, before that I don't understand why they said that but now I know already ><

However, I will stay positive and humble. And one day, I will make you proud, mum and dad. 

x S P R I N G x

Fake candid shot again. Thanks to my lovely photographer hehehe. but the flowers are so beaitiful <3 <3 

Hello spring. 

Time flies. I'm going to say goodbye to this beautiful country soon. 

Feeling sad but happy at the same time. lol  

B'cuz my parents are coming soon. 

Btw,I'm still looking for a job. Sigh. Gonna face the reality soon. 

No more books, no more fun, no more skipping class. Guess what, I'm gonna miss my student life when I start working. 
What to do. This is life, isn't it? 

I always think about my future.

What does future means to you? 

Thinking of what will happen in the next 5 or 10 years.

manager? director? a entrepreneur? or a housewife? lol 

Read back my blog and pictures.

I think I've changed, quite a lot. 

I'm no longer that little childish girl with the childish mind

We both turned 22 and our relationship becomes stronger year by year. *touch wood*

I wish our relationship can maintain like this forever. 

I appreciate every moment with him.

Another fake candid shot. love the view

This is just a ransom post because I'm too free nowadays lol
Photos edited through vscocam app.

See ya! Ciao
xoxo

Foodporn *Slurp

   

I am using vscocam app to edit my photos 

xx

5.4.2014

                                      

Dear diary, 

I am back to you again. 

I just came back from the vacation with my friends, now it's time to back to reality. 

Traveling around makes me feel that there are so many things to explore in this world.

The world is so big while I'm just a little tiny potato. 

But you know what.. I wish to travel around in the future, with my loved one.

 I miss my boy every time when I go travel. And I can't wait to meet him in UK :) 

We're gonna walk along the streets, holding hands, taking nice pictures together.

 Time passes please faster. I miss him . Hehe. 

MY CUTE BOY <3

see you soon
baby.

                                   

无助

该怎么去相信一个人？

因为你最信任的人 往往是伤你最深的人

真的好害怕 好无助

我真的应该不要想太多

但是总是控制不了

还不是没有安全感惹出来的祸

但

在乎太多会惹人反感的

笨蛋

我们

我们都怕痛
我们都是傻瓜
我们怕寂寞
我们都舍不得
我们犯贱
但 我们都还爱着

blog updated 29.1.2014

Finally have time to update my blog.

My blog is totally dead

This is the first update after I came back to luzern.

Now is just week 2, tons of assignments are coming

and of course dissertation zzz

The view is always amazing and breathtaking isn't it.

Let the pictures do the talking hahaha.

This was taken before I cut my long hair

The reason why i cut my hair is because I forgot to do hair treatment when I was still in Malaysia

So my hair is really damage and dry.

and my boyfie always want me to cut my hair. 

So yeah, I decided to cut it off after so many years!

I actually asked my friend who don't have any experience to help me to cut my hair.

All of them were shocked when they knew that.

and keep asking ' are you sure x10000000 times '?

I have no idea what happen to me haha.

maybe just want to change a new hairstyle. feel bored of the old hairstyle already.

So ta-daaaaa, this is the result. 

Not bad though. haha

but you know what, I showed this to my bf. but he said 'cut like no cut' 

this actually broke my heart into pieces. lol

I sent this photo to my bf and he asked who is this

I said this is your gf.

and he said his gf doesn't look so pretty hahahahaa

THIS IS ME OKAYYY O.O

Give my your hug, bb <3

Some girls love to say they miss their long hair after they cut their hair 

I personally think that is really stupid .

(sorry, no offense)

想就不要剪 剪了就不要乱

I love my current hairstyle and I feel like cutting again. lol

Will try to update more 

Because I know my dear czf will stalk here everyday

GOT-CHAAAA

See, I know you are stalking and smiling at the same time. hehe

xx

I am ready for the new challenge and I will fight until the end.

bye bye 

1.1.2014

2013年

得到的很多 失去的也不少

但为什么我还把你照片放在里面

你应该知道 你让我在两年多里是那么的快乐

想像我们在一起的第一年帮你庆祝生日

今天你打电话来

我说了一句惹毛你的话

‘最后一次帮你庆祝了’

你就很气得问我

‘那明年呢’

其实我的意思是

我又要飞回去读书了

可能最后一次和你出去了阿

你会等我回来吗？

我总是觉得我比蛮多人幸运

我有机会出国读书

实习的工钱还比这里做工的人多

和父母到处旅行

到人人梦寐以求的马尔代夫实习

但我和他却因此而分手

也许他不曾离开

只是默默地在关心我

我每次在twitter写我的问题

他都会第一时间来问我

我很多时候都是在试探他

我总是希望在你生日那天

我帮你庆祝，也许你朋友也会在

我希望你能把你心底的话再和我讲一次

让我再看到你的诚意

有时候你忍着不再去招惹这一切

但心里那关始终过不到

我 还爱着。

2014年

希望我能顺顺利利毕业

在漂亮的瑞士山前拍个毕业照

也希望你真的会到英国读书

那我们就可以一起见面一起玩

一起毕业

一起开始做工

一起到永远！

父母健康 

我爱的人

爱我的人

都平平安安就好了

我要求不多

2014 

HUAT AH!

田馥甄 你就不要想起我

                   

我都寂寞多久了還是沒好
感覺全世界都在竊竊嘲笑
我能有多驕傲 不堪一擊好不好
一碰到你我就被撂倒

吵醒沈睡冰山後從容脫逃
你總是有辦法輕易作到
一個遠遠的微笑 就掀起洶湧波濤
又聞到眼淚沸騰的味道

明明你也很愛我 沒理由愛不到結果
只要你敢不懦弱 憑什麼我們要錯過
夜長夢還多 你就不要想起我
到時候你就知道有多痛

當時那些快樂多難得美好
你真的有辦法捨得不要
才剛成真的美夢 轉眼就幻滅破掉
祝福你真的可以睡得好

明明你也最愛我 沒理由愛不到結果
只要你敢不懦弱 憑什麼我們要錯過
夜長夢很多 你就不要想起我
到時候最好別來要認錯
你就不要 想我到 瘋掉

明明你也還愛我 沒理由愛不到結果
只要你敢不懦弱 憑什麼我們要錯過
夜長夢會多 你就不要想起我
我等夜監聽你說多愛我

I am back blog.

Finally I am homeeeee.

So happy to see my family and him.

We never talked since 2 months ago after broke up

Everything is so awkward when we first met in airport.

We were so silent in the car.

And then he started the conversation.

'How was your training'

'Why are you so quiet'

'Why you don't look at me like how you used to be'

I was like awwwhh, this is so awkward.

And then he asked

' Can I hug you'

'yes, for the last time'

He hugged me so tighttttt until I can't breath lol

then I started to tear.

This is the hug that i waiting for so long.

I cried even harder when he said sorry to me and kissed my forehead.

He saw that and he hugged me for so long and tight.

And then we went for lunch at our fav place that we used to be.

Everything suddenly become so sweet.

We talked and laughed, We sweet talked, but we are just friends.

I don't know how should I do. 

I am confuse

I am terrified.

I told him if you want me back just do something.

The way he looked at me yesterday is so 'deep'(深情)'

and I love the way he looked at me and smiling non stop.

and he told me every single moment of us he never forget.

before he left,

he gave me a hug and a goodbye kiss.

This never happened before.

I feel in love again. like 热恋期

But I think if a guy really love you,

he should make some more efforts..

I don't want to think anymore.

顺其自然吧

3 more weeks to go

还有三个礼拜就要回家了，时间过得好快。但所有事情完全改变了

你有什么要亲口跟我讲的吗？

我第一个回到的城市是槟城。

算了，当我在讲梦话吧

你 忘 了

你忘了我们曾经一起搭巴士

你忘了我们一起去旅行

你忘了我从来都不嫌弃你

你忘了我们吵得很凶 但最后我还是回到你身边

你忘了有个女人为了你两年没碰酒,没去夜店，没抽烟，没和男人单独出门，只有天天的看着电话。

就算我飞到多远，我都一直想着你，没想过放弃。而你却耐不住寂寞而放弃了。你不知道我是多么的失望。我到现在还不能相信..你真的放弃了？

你只会怨我放你一个人，而你不知道这是为了将来的铺路。

你忘了所有我对你所作过的事

我等了又等，我想真的是时候放弃了。

918 days

本来还想提早回去和你过几天的二人世界

本来想赚钱了 回去请你吃大餐

本来想回去 和你手牵手一起去看电影

本来想回去 一起煮东西 依偎在一起看戏

本来想回去 第一件事就要紧紧的抱着你不放的

本来还帮你庆祝生日，难得明年有机会

也和你计划过未来 

你怎么就突然累了呢？

说好的幸福呢？

你不爱我了吗？

怎么就这样丢下我了...

再见

你给的爱有期限，爱一个人是不会累的 不管距离多遥远，除非你已不爱。

如果等得不开心，那我宁愿不要你等

我要的是愿意等我的人

你以为我不孤独吗？

哭了没人安慰

病了没人理

经痛没人抱受委屈了没人诉苦

人心难测，时间和距离最容易让人看得出谁是真的爱你。

你把我所有梦都打散了。

我恨你，我们坚持了那么久，你现在竟然半途而废。我所有努力以成空。

好了，现在不必努力得讨要提早回去l

不用努力的要实现帮男朋友过生日的愿望

因为已成过去 

Internship in Maldives

Hey bloggie,

Long time no see. 

Almost one month in Maldives. 

Everything is fine, except the weather. 

People are nice and helpful.

Guests are friendly too. 

I appreciate everything, thank you. 

 Missing my family and my baby boy. 

Time flies. See you soon <3

Gimme some time. 290813

                                     

The person in charge told me that he will send me an email today.

I'm waiting and my heart is beating fast.

Idk when I will leave. But I do hope that I can see you/be with you before I leave.

My sis is going to have her trial exam on 2nd of sept.

That day my parents asked if zf can send me to airport or not as they can't send me off.

I don't know, I haven't ask cuz I know either he is working or moving house :/

I hope I can celebrate my birthday with him. :(

Just, please gimme some time to spend with him. 

PLEASE.

Family trip Hanoi. 090813

Hello guys, I just came back from Hanoi, Vietnam. It was quite fun but I don't like the weather there . 

Too hot. 

I hate how I dress up nicely, put on some light make up in the early morning but after a while, my face and hair turn so oily, clothes become wet because of the weather. I sweat a lot seriously! 

This is the first day. It is quite tiring because once we reached Hanoi, the tour guide straight away bring us to visit this temple. We have no time to rest or wash our faces. 

I just want to back to the hotel that day. Totally have no mood to walk around. (plus the hot weather)lol

My dad. 

The traffic there is terrible and horrible. 

There is no traffic light on the road.

Even if there are traffic lights, ppl there will never follow the rules.

It is so dangerous. 

But sometime I'm quite curious why there is no accident happened!

The cars can simply cross others lane or opposite direction. 

I really can't sleep well in the bus.

Before dinner we went to body massage. 

My face is like I just finished plastic surgery lolll.wtf

Then the second day we went to the very well-known Halong Bay.

The view is damn amazing right?

Everything is so nice, except the weather.

40 Celcius. Crazy!!

After 4 hours, we reached the most beautiful cave in the Halong Bay.

I forgot the name of the island d lol wtf sorry.

Very beautiful isn't it. 

<3

Mad love the cool weather inside. Wish to sleep in the cave and don't want to go out lol.

And luckily they provide us their traditional hat. I wear it every time when I walk under the sun.

This is second day pix.

And I still looked fair.

 THEN THE NEXT DAY.

I BECOME SO TANNED!

fml.

My muscular dad and the amazing view.

Thank to the photographer la haha! 

Ppl must think I'm crazy cause I wear long sleeves shirt on this hot weather haha cuz I wan to protect my skin from the hot sun.

Dad purposely brings his cowboy hat from Aussie to act cool lol.

Happy family <3

Before heading to airport. We went to this Kong Zi temple.

                

End of story.

Byebye Hanoi!

Lucky August

I got my email ! I got my internship training in Maldives!!!!

Before this, me and another 2 friends had interview with the hotels in Maldives.

 And they got the job,but only me got rejected. That time, I really think that I'm the unluckiest girl among them and I feel stupid.

 But at the same time I feel quite happy because I don't have to leave my family and loved one in the early of July. 

So this time,the second company interviewed me.
I think this interview was the hardest one if compare to the previous one.
 actually the hotel wants me to work until Feb 2014. But I told them I can't. 

I know I'm lucky when the director email me and told me I can start my training on August until December! 

I swear to god , this is the best news ever! 

Time passes too fast!

From the day I came back here until now.

I feel so much loves from everyone, especially from my family. 

This is the new member in da house.
I will definitely miss this cutie pie when I leave.

She gives us so much fun.

I just can't stop looking her <3

Stay healthy baby.

I love you brownie.

My parents who love me so much.

I am going to Hanoi with my parents before off to Maldives. 

Another family trip.

Thank you for everything.

Hope to see you again in December.

My cool bb.

We went through a lot in this 2 years+ time.

I'm glad that after 2 years, it's still you.

Everytime we fight,we feel like giving up.

Then what brings us back?

The answer is always the same

'LOVE'

I don't know what will happen in the future.

But i wanna tell you that at this moment,

I will fight for it.

I appreciate everything I have right now.

*kiss*

See you soon.

I am a lucky girl I know!!

*TOUCH WOOD*