4 June 2013

"懂你的人，会用你所需要的方式去爱你。不懂你的人，会用他所需要的方式去爱你。于是，懂你的人，常是事半功倍，他爱得自如，你受得幸福。不懂你的人，常是事倍功半，他爱得吃力，你受得辛苦。两个人的世界里，懂比爱，更难做到。"——苏芩 

- 这是我想对你说的话 你懂我 我也懂你 我尽量不去做你不喜欢的事 那你为何不能迁就我？爱你就要接受 你知道我把你看成是我的一辈子 但是弱点一直不改 我们一直为了同样的事情吵 你觉得会幸福吗？ 我知道我弱点很多 我努力地再改  那你为什么就不能为我改一点？- 

Future.

When I heard about this word 'future'. I scare.
I don't know what am I going to be in the next five years.
Where am I in the next five years?
Some people may think that I shouldn't worry about my future b'cuz of my family.
But, one day I'm gonna leave my parents, come out, work and have my own life.
I will graduate on June 2014. No matter I continue my degree on June 2013 or Jan 2014.
Why I choose to have another internship instead of continue study?
Not just because of friends or what,it's because I already made a decision starting from the day when I'm still a higher diploma student.
I wanna try more things, gain more experiences when I'm still a student.
I know that after I graduate, I won't have this opportunity to work in different counties anymore.
Nowadays working permit is hard to apply. I'm really glad that my lecturer helps me to settle all those stuffs.
So why don't I give a try? Some people just don't understand about it and keep saying I'm wasting my time.
And why I choose to continue internship and don't want to go back to Swiss YET? why?
Because there is a boy that I love very much. I wish I can see him more when I finish my internship before I fly back to Swiss. So I want to choose a country that near to Malaysia. I wish I can celebrate his birthday together with him, give him a kiss like 2 years ago.
I need supports from my family, friends and love one. Is that possible?

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Yes.. We get back together

Yes.. He did a mistake and I gave him one  last chance 

I really thought that we were done that time.

Thanks god he never gave up on me. 

I listened to my friends' advises  If a guy don't love you , he won't tell you the truth. Although the truth is always cruel than lies.

Everybody make mistakes. So do I.

I can live without him but I know I will live much happier when I'm with him.
After we broke up, everything is still remain the same. I joke around and put a fake smile on my face.
I know that I have to continue my own life even without him beside me.
But when I saw his name appeared on my phone. I could feel my heartbeats.
When I heard his voice, I smiled. That time only I realized he is the one...

Bruno Mars If I Was Your Man- Lyrics

truth is always cruel

Every time u told me don't do this , don't do that.
I will always try my best not to do the thing u don't like.
I follow the rules you set for me. But how about you?
I trusted you,but the mistake u have done will never ever get my forgiveness. It was a huge mistake.
Perhaps, I will forgive but I will never forget.

Once you lost my trust, you will never get it back.
goodbye.

Happy two years - 12.4.2013

5th of April:
Once I stepped out from airport. I saw him standing there with the smiley face. His smile is probably the best smile in this world. Both of us smile to each other without saying anything. No words could ever describe my feeling that time . Then we went to eat our breakfast and check in hotel and wait for my parents. Around 7, we watched "Olympus had fallen". I miss movie time with him so much!!

And 12th of April: It was our 2nd anniversary. Time flies. We fight. We broke up . But we never gave up on each other. We went through a lot . Long distance relationship ain't easy . But we'll try our best to maintain it. Happy 2 years baby. I wait you come back ok. Faster come back.. *hug . I want to act silly together with you hehe. I love you, forever and ever <3 data-blogger-escaped-br="">

Act silly together @ old town. 

9.4.13

Why do you leave me alone when I need you the most?
Why do you let go so easily?
Why don't you appreciate every single moment with me after I came back from Switzerland ?
Why do you give up so fast even tho we just had little fight?

Don't you know that two is better than one ...