I am back blog.

Finally I am homeeeee.

So happy to see my family and him.

We never talked since 2 months ago after broke up

Everything is so awkward when we first met in airport.

We were so silent in the car.

And then he started the conversation.

'How was your training'

'Why are you so quiet'

'Why you don't look at me like how you used to be'

I was like awwwhh, this is so awkward.

And then he asked

' Can I hug you'

'yes, for the last time'

He hugged me so tighttttt until I can't breath lol

then I started to tear.

This is the hug that i waiting for so long.

I cried even harder when he said sorry to me and kissed my forehead.

He saw that and he hugged me for so long and tight.

And then we went for lunch at our fav place that we used to be.

Everything suddenly become so sweet.

We talked and laughed, We sweet talked, but we are just friends.

I don't know how should I do. 

I am confuse

I am terrified.

I told him if you want me back just do something.

The way he looked at me yesterday is so 'deep'(深情)'

and I love the way he looked at me and smiling non stop.

and he told me every single moment of us he never forget.

before he left,

he gave me a hug and a goodbye kiss.

This never happened before.

I feel in love again. like 热恋期

But I think if a guy really love you,

he should make some more efforts..

I don't want to think anymore.

顺其自然吧