Future.

When I heard about this word 'future'. I scare.
I don't know what am I going to be in the next five years.
Where am I in the next five years?
Some people may think that I shouldn't worry about my future b'cuz of my family.
But, one day I'm gonna leave my parents, come out, work and have my own life.
I will graduate on June 2014. No matter I continue my degree on June 2013 or Jan 2014.
Why I choose to have another internship instead of continue study?
Not just because of friends or what,it's because I already made a decision starting from the day when I'm still a higher diploma student.
I wanna try more things, gain more experiences when I'm still a student.
I know that after I graduate, I won't have this opportunity to work in different counties anymore.
Nowadays working permit is hard to apply. I'm really glad that my lecturer helps me to settle all those stuffs.
So why don't I give a try? Some people just don't understand about it and keep saying I'm wasting my time.
And why I choose to continue internship and don't want to go back to Swiss YET? why?
Because there is a boy that I love very much. I wish I can see him more when I finish my internship before I fly back to Swiss. So I want to choose a country that near to Malaysia. I wish I can celebrate his birthday together with him, give him a kiss like 2 years ago.
I need supports from my family, friends and love one. Is that possible?