田馥甄 你就不要想起我

                   

我都寂寞多久了還是沒好
感覺全世界都在竊竊嘲笑
我能有多驕傲 不堪一擊好不好
一碰到你我就被撂倒

吵醒沈睡冰山後從容脫逃
你總是有辦法輕易作到
一個遠遠的微笑 就掀起洶湧波濤
又聞到眼淚沸騰的味道

明明你也很愛我 沒理由愛不到結果
只要你敢不懦弱 憑什麼我們要錯過
夜長夢還多 你就不要想起我
到時候你就知道有多痛

當時那些快樂多難得美好
你真的有辦法捨得不要
才剛成真的美夢 轉眼就幻滅破掉
祝福你真的可以睡得好

明明你也最愛我 沒理由愛不到結果
只要你敢不懦弱 憑什麼我們要錯過
夜長夢很多 你就不要想起我
到時候最好別來要認錯
你就不要 想我到 瘋掉

明明你也還愛我 沒理由愛不到結果
只要你敢不懦弱 憑什麼我們要錯過
夜長夢會多 你就不要想起我
我等夜監聽你說多愛我

I am back blog.

Finally I am homeeeee.

So happy to see my family and him.

We never talked since 2 months ago after broke up

Everything is so awkward when we first met in airport.

We were so silent in the car.

And then he started the conversation.

'How was your training'

'Why are you so quiet'

'Why you don't look at me like how you used to be'

I was like awwwhh, this is so awkward.

And then he asked

' Can I hug you'

'yes, for the last time'

He hugged me so tighttttt until I can't breath lol

then I started to tear.

This is the hug that i waiting for so long.

I cried even harder when he said sorry to me and kissed my forehead.

He saw that and he hugged me for so long and tight.

And then we went for lunch at our fav place that we used to be.

Everything suddenly become so sweet.

We talked and laughed, We sweet talked, but we are just friends.

I don't know how should I do. 

I am confuse

I am terrified.

I told him if you want me back just do something.

The way he looked at me yesterday is so 'deep'(深情)'

and I love the way he looked at me and smiling non stop.

and he told me every single moment of us he never forget.

before he left,

he gave me a hug and a goodbye kiss.

This never happened before.

I feel in love again. like 热恋期

But I think if a guy really love you,

he should make some more efforts..

I don't want to think anymore.

顺其自然吧

3 more weeks to go

还有三个礼拜就要回家了，时间过得好快。但所有事情完全改变了

你有什么要亲口跟我讲的吗？

我第一个回到的城市是槟城。

算了，当我在讲梦话吧

你 忘 了

你忘了我们曾经一起搭巴士

你忘了我们一起去旅行

你忘了我从来都不嫌弃你

你忘了我们吵得很凶 但最后我还是回到你身边

你忘了有个女人为了你两年没碰酒,没去夜店，没抽烟，没和男人单独出门，只有天天的看着电话。

就算我飞到多远，我都一直想着你，没想过放弃。而你却耐不住寂寞而放弃了。你不知道我是多么的失望。我到现在还不能相信..你真的放弃了？

你只会怨我放你一个人，而你不知道这是为了将来的铺路。

你忘了所有我对你所作过的事

我等了又等，我想真的是时候放弃了。

918 days

本来还想提早回去和你过几天的二人世界

本来想赚钱了 回去请你吃大餐

本来想回去 和你手牵手一起去看电影

本来想回去 一起煮东西 依偎在一起看戏

本来想回去 第一件事就要紧紧的抱着你不放的

本来还帮你庆祝生日，难得明年有机会

也和你计划过未来 

你怎么就突然累了呢？

说好的幸福呢？

你不爱我了吗？

怎么就这样丢下我了...

再见

你给的爱有期限，爱一个人是不会累的 不管距离多遥远，除非你已不爱。

如果等得不开心，那我宁愿不要你等

我要的是愿意等我的人

你以为我不孤独吗？

哭了没人安慰

病了没人理

经痛没人抱受委屈了没人诉苦

人心难测，时间和距离最容易让人看得出谁是真的爱你。

你把我所有梦都打散了。

我恨你，我们坚持了那么久，你现在竟然半途而废。我所有努力以成空。

好了，现在不必努力得讨要提早回去l

不用努力的要实现帮男朋友过生日的愿望

因为已成过去 

Internship in Maldives

Hey bloggie,

Long time no see. 

Almost one month in Maldives. 

Everything is fine, except the weather. 

People are nice and helpful.

Guests are friendly too. 

I appreciate everything, thank you. 

 Missing my family and my baby boy. 

Time flies. See you soon <3

Gimme some time. 290813

                                     

The person in charge told me that he will send me an email today.

I'm waiting and my heart is beating fast.

Idk when I will leave. But I do hope that I can see you/be with you before I leave.

My sis is going to have her trial exam on 2nd of sept.

That day my parents asked if zf can send me to airport or not as they can't send me off.

I don't know, I haven't ask cuz I know either he is working or moving house :/

I hope I can celebrate my birthday with him. :(

Just, please gimme some time to spend with him. 

PLEASE.

Family trip Hanoi. 090813

Hello guys, I just came back from Hanoi, Vietnam. It was quite fun but I don't like the weather there . 

Too hot. 

I hate how I dress up nicely, put on some light make up in the early morning but after a while, my face and hair turn so oily, clothes become wet because of the weather. I sweat a lot seriously! 

This is the first day. It is quite tiring because once we reached Hanoi, the tour guide straight away bring us to visit this temple. We have no time to rest or wash our faces. 

I just want to back to the hotel that day. Totally have no mood to walk around. (plus the hot weather)lol

My dad. 

The traffic there is terrible and horrible. 

There is no traffic light on the road.

Even if there are traffic lights, ppl there will never follow the rules.

It is so dangerous. 

But sometime I'm quite curious why there is no accident happened!

The cars can simply cross others lane or opposite direction. 

I really can't sleep well in the bus.

Before dinner we went to body massage. 

My face is like I just finished plastic surgery lolll.wtf

Then the second day we went to the very well-known Halong Bay.

The view is damn amazing right?

Everything is so nice, except the weather.

40 Celcius. Crazy!!

After 4 hours, we reached the most beautiful cave in the Halong Bay.

I forgot the name of the island d lol wtf sorry.

Very beautiful isn't it. 

<3

Mad love the cool weather inside. Wish to sleep in the cave and don't want to go out lol.

And luckily they provide us their traditional hat. I wear it every time when I walk under the sun.

This is second day pix.

And I still looked fair.

 THEN THE NEXT DAY.

I BECOME SO TANNED!

fml.

My muscular dad and the amazing view.

Thank to the photographer la haha! 

Ppl must think I'm crazy cause I wear long sleeves shirt on this hot weather haha cuz I wan to protect my skin from the hot sun.

Dad purposely brings his cowboy hat from Aussie to act cool lol.

Happy family <3

Before heading to airport. We went to this Kong Zi temple.

                

End of story.

Byebye Hanoi!

Lucky August

I got my email ! I got my internship training in Maldives!!!!

Before this, me and another 2 friends had interview with the hotels in Maldives.

 And they got the job,but only me got rejected. That time, I really think that I'm the unluckiest girl among them and I feel stupid.

 But at the same time I feel quite happy because I don't have to leave my family and loved one in the early of July. 

So this time,the second company interviewed me.
I think this interview was the hardest one if compare to the previous one.
 actually the hotel wants me to work until Feb 2014. But I told them I can't. 

I know I'm lucky when the director email me and told me I can start my training on August until December! 

I swear to god , this is the best news ever! 

Time passes too fast!

From the day I came back here until now.

I feel so much loves from everyone, especially from my family. 

This is the new member in da house.
I will definitely miss this cutie pie when I leave.

She gives us so much fun.

I just can't stop looking her <3

Stay healthy baby.

I love you brownie.

My parents who love me so much.

I am going to Hanoi with my parents before off to Maldives. 

Another family trip.

Thank you for everything.

Hope to see you again in December.

My cool bb.

We went through a lot in this 2 years+ time.

I'm glad that after 2 years, it's still you.

Everytime we fight,we feel like giving up.

Then what brings us back?

The answer is always the same

'LOVE'

I don't know what will happen in the future.

But i wanna tell you that at this moment,

I will fight for it.

I appreciate everything I have right now.

*kiss*

See you soon.

I am a lucky girl I know!!

*TOUCH WOOD*

::首播:: Della丁噹【不是你的錯】MV官方完整版-三立[真愛找麻煩]插曲

Posted by zixian♥

15.7.2013

Hello people. 

Now is already mid of July . I can't believe time is passing so fast. 

And hell yeah, I still haven't receive me email. 

I just came back from Penang. Happy moment always passed so fast and I really enjoyed my 4 days with my baby boy.  

                                    

Happy Studying

Happy Working.

Hope to see you soon.

I love you.

xoxo

 

Mid of June

Dear diary,

It's already mid of June. 

I'm still waiting for the reply whether I pass my interview or not. 

But somehow.... from the deep of my heart,'I wish I failed the interview'.
The longer I stay in my hometown with my family, I don't feel like leaving my hometown.
I feel like staying here until December.
I know I'm too greedy.
I know I shouldn't think of that, but sorry...
I know my boyfriend will think that I am wasting my time.
Yes, i know. Indeed.
Everyday wake up from the bed, accomp parents for breakfast, jogging etc. same routine everyday but I am really happy b'cuz my family is with me.
I know time is gold.
And today I asked my dad:
'HOW IF I DIDN'T PASS MY INTERVIEW'
and he answered me:
'No how, then just follow us go travel on August, accompany papa until December cuz I wont able to see you the next whole year'

I don't know what to say.
I don't know why but recently when I think of I'm am leaving soon on July (maybe), I started to cry.
I become weak when the day turns dark, especially during midnight.
I think of my parents, family and my boyfriend.
You will never ever know how amazing it is when you receive the call from your loved one every night before you go to bed.
I scare if I really get my internship in Maldives, I can't come back here but have to straight fly back to Switzerland. They want me to work until January. That is not my plan thou.

I don't know what to do now.
I just hope my bf don't mad at me when he sees this post.

4 June 2013

"懂你的人，会用你所需要的方式去爱你。不懂你的人，会用他所需要的方式去爱你。于是，懂你的人，常是事半功倍，他爱得自如，你受得幸福。不懂你的人，常是事倍功半，他爱得吃力，你受得辛苦。两个人的世界里，懂比爱，更难做到。"——苏芩 

- 这是我想对你说的话 你懂我 我也懂你 我尽量不去做你不喜欢的事 那你为何不能迁就我？爱你就要接受 你知道我把你看成是我的一辈子 但是弱点一直不改 我们一直为了同样的事情吵 你觉得会幸福吗？ 我知道我弱点很多 我努力地再改  那你为什么就不能为我改一点？- 

Future.

When I heard about this word 'future'. I scare.
I don't know what am I going to be in the next five years.
Where am I in the next five years?
Some people may think that I shouldn't worry about my future b'cuz of my family.
But, one day I'm gonna leave my parents, come out, work and have my own life.
I will graduate on June 2014. No matter I continue my degree on June 2013 or Jan 2014.
Why I choose to have another internship instead of continue study?
Not just because of friends or what,it's because I already made a decision starting from the day when I'm still a higher diploma student.
I wanna try more things, gain more experiences when I'm still a student.
I know that after I graduate, I won't have this opportunity to work in different counties anymore.
Nowadays working permit is hard to apply. I'm really glad that my lecturer helps me to settle all those stuffs.
So why don't I give a try? Some people just don't understand about it and keep saying I'm wasting my time.
And why I choose to continue internship and don't want to go back to Swiss YET? why?
Because there is a boy that I love very much. I wish I can see him more when I finish my internship before I fly back to Swiss. So I want to choose a country that near to Malaysia. I wish I can celebrate his birthday together with him, give him a kiss like 2 years ago.
I need supports from my family, friends and love one. Is that possible?

520

Yes.. We get back together

Yes.. He did a mistake and I gave him one  last chance 

I really thought that we were done that time.

Thanks god he never gave up on me. 

I listened to my friends' advises  If a guy don't love you , he won't tell you the truth. Although the truth is always cruel than lies.

Everybody make mistakes. So do I.

I can live without him but I know I will live much happier when I'm with him.
After we broke up, everything is still remain the same. I joke around and put a fake smile on my face.
I know that I have to continue my own life even without him beside me.
But when I saw his name appeared on my phone. I could feel my heartbeats.
When I heard his voice, I smiled. That time only I realized he is the one...

Bruno Mars If I Was Your Man- Lyrics

truth is always cruel

Every time u told me don't do this , don't do that.
I will always try my best not to do the thing u don't like.
I follow the rules you set for me. But how about you?
I trusted you,but the mistake u have done will never ever get my forgiveness. It was a huge mistake.
Perhaps, I will forgive but I will never forget.

Once you lost my trust, you will never get it back.
goodbye.

Happy two years - 12.4.2013

5th of April:
Once I stepped out from airport. I saw him standing there with the smiley face. His smile is probably the best smile in this world. Both of us smile to each other without saying anything. No words could ever describe my feeling that time . Then we went to eat our breakfast and check in hotel and wait for my parents. Around 7, we watched "Olympus had fallen". I miss movie time with him so much!!

And 12th of April: It was our 2nd anniversary. Time flies. We fight. We broke up . But we never gave up on each other. We went through a lot . Long distance relationship ain't easy . But we'll try our best to maintain it. Happy 2 years baby. I wait you come back ok. Faster come back.. *hug . I want to act silly together with you hehe. I love you, forever and ever <3 data-blogger-escaped-br="">

Act silly together @ old town. 

9.4.13

Why do you leave me alone when I need you the most?
Why do you let go so easily?
Why don't you appreciate every single moment with me after I came back from Switzerland ?
Why do you give up so fast even tho we just had little fight?

Don't you know that two is better than one ...

...

You miss me? You miss me not?
You love me? You love me not ?

Happy CNY 2013

Happy Chinese New Year to all my friends. 

This year I have no chance to celebrate cny with my family, bf and friends.

I even cried in front of my friends when I had my dinner.

It was all even's fault!! She cried first because of the message, then make me think of my parents and grandparents, I cried. When shu ping see I cried, she also cried.lol

The others saw three of us cried like a baby, all just keep quiet.

So damn paiseh loll

Anyway, glad that I'm having my internship in a chinese restaurant with a group of Chinese people.

We celebrate cny right after finishing our work.

It was a busy weekend and everyone was so tired.

Chef cooked some nice food for us.

Our supper. Now you know why my face become so round. fml

Without family beside, luckily still have bunch of good friends accomp me. :) 

Really happy and appreciated.

A red packet from my manager, thank you.

Well, today is my offday. 

Went to Lanquart to buy some new stuffs for cny. 

The prices are so 'nice' but too bad every cheap stuffs I wanna buy don't have my size.

I really wanna cry out loud!!

Especially this pullover.

It's just cost 19.95chf!!!

This is for men actually but I took the smallest size for trying

Too bad it's still big for me :(

Why ? TELL ME WHY ?!!!! 

End up I just bough a pair of wedges from Tommy Hilfiger.

Ain't cheap thou but I really like it and very comfortable. :) 

My ootd :

Sometimes I really sick of the weather. I used to love winter so much but now no more.

No matter how nice I wear, I still need to wear a heavy jacket and boots wherever I go.

Hate it! hate it.

one more thing. When you wanna try some new clothes, you need to take off one by one, it's so damn tiring!!

Spring~ can you come faster??!!

Last thing :

Today is our 1 year 10 months anniversary.

My baby likes to ask me a question on 12th of every month

'WHAT DAY IS IT? lolll

so cute <3 

He is so sweet sometimes.

Opps, just sometimes. 

haha

Love you many many too

my love !

2 more months to go xx

What's up people?

I am still alive, no worries.

World Economic Forum (WEF) is officially end and I finally have my offday!

This function drives all of us crazy but it's a great experience thou.

Met lots of people and celebrities.

Second and Fifth Richest man from India and their bodyguards

Australia Former Prime Minister

Supermodel Lily Cole

ETC

Some VVIP from China and Korean (sorry i don't know who are they actually)

But these people ain't easy to handle especially korean and chinese.

I don't like them. I still prefer local Swiss people

Nice,humble, friendly and gentle even thou they are rich.

Why those Asian people can't be exactly like them??

I don't care you are rich are poor, as long as your manner is good. I will treat you nice too.

Okay, I should stop the crap.

I keep complaining this issue these few days in my twitter and facebook.

Call my baby today.

My surprise failed again.

Plan changed.

I want him to pick me up in the airport once i reach Malaysia.

I wanna give him a warm and tight hug when I see him

So I told him the date I go back -.- 

lol

2 more months to go

I am coming home.

Wait me back 

xoxo 

Internship. Working life

Yo people.

Finally have time to update my blog.

Everyday is so busy almost sleep at 3am every night. 

My dark circles all coming out.

My parents got shocked when I skype with them.

Work for two weeks and finally have off day on this coming Thursday

I'm gonna snooze for the whole day.

Get some tips from guests, this becomes one of my motivation to work so hard

Gotta work for few months more and will back to my sweet home

Just wish the time can pass faster

Baby's birthday just over

Made a short video for him.

Glad that everyone says my video is sweet. Muahahahaha

But that boy didn't say anything to me..lol

I don't know what is in his mind after he watched the video...

Ok

that's it for today post.

goodbye.